My nose finds itself hidden promiscuously in my textbooks,
And I pretend that the persistence of memory is reliable.
Yet as the aroma of spring blossoms wafts into this dormitory
One last time, I remember — If only for a moment —
That the moment I remember — as I forget —
Is stored up within the heavenly places.
My blind nostalgia and anticipation
Have not yet forgotten this:
Eternity is written
not on my mind,
but in my
Heart
Amazing.
Meg, I like this post a lot. Grades are important, but it’s taking the time to enjoy life, to be there for people that is important. I’ve had to learn this too. I’m not who I was, floating in a bubble, ignoring people, and coming off as this standoffish weirdo. But I don’t, and will never work to please any man. I work to please God. I don’t care what someone thinks about what I do, as long as God is happy with it. And part of pleasing him has to do with being there for everyone around me.
Nimer,
It’s great that God has transformed you so much. When we seek after pleasure for ourselves, we don’t find pleasure, and neither does anyone around us. When we seek to please God, this pleases Him and even allows us and those around us to experience His joy.
I can totally relate to your loner tendencies. In high school I was so worried about my own reputation that I would miss fellowship and service opportunities to attempt to get ahead in my studies. Yet somehow I never got ahead – I just became consumed with my schoolwork. In my perfectionism, I lost the joy of my own life and was prevented from bringing joy to others.
When you float around in a self-reliant bubble, you’re just asking for something to come by and burst it. When you step out in faith, you no longer have the pressure to rely on yourself alone. Not only can you give to others now that that barrier is gone, but you can also freely receive blessing.