I don’t even know how I got here.
It’s been quite a blur.
I used to be someone else. Someone I liked.
Then something happened, and I’ve been hiking uphill ever since,
trying to get to the place
where I once was.
I couldn’t get there by going back, so I’m trying to get there,
to that place in the past,
by going forward.
So here I am,
in a
new
old
place.
I’m dragging my feet here.
In my mind, of course —
not enough to leave a real mark, of course.
If I can’t change it for the better,
Maybe I can at least try
not to make a
mess.
I dream of things, of course —
but they are all the wrong dreams.
I’m wanting to hear the message that it’s all going to be unconditionally okay.
At the same time I’m wanting to be the person who helps make it that way.
I know it can’t be both.
Or do I?
But I’m no hero. I’m no
thing. I’m a shadow
of who I once was.
There. I said it.
I used to be so strong.
But I’ve lost it.
I don’t want to be hero anymore,
a warrior, a genius, a virtuoso, a prodigy.
I just want to survive. I can’t think past that.
So here I am, not making a mess.
Not making anybody mad.
Not letting anybody down.
So here I am, fighting for just
me.
It is one thing to know a good song exists.
It is another thing for that good song to find you in a
new
old
place.
Please
find me
I wanna get caught dreaming
the best dreams
PROPHETIC WORD for today: I see in the spirit realm a room with golden cabinets, a golden floor, golden baskets, golden chairs and couches. There are easels, books, work benches and more! Angels stand guard waiting for those who will believe. It’s a creative room, where dreams are partnered with, and innovations, ideas and all things that are new are released! The angels are waiting, standing on watch, for the movement of your hands, an open heart, a willing soul who will be daring enough and courageous enough to start something NEW with God in 2017! STAY brave! Stay courageous! Everything you need is in heaven, and God is ready, willing and able to release it to you! Get into agreement! BELIEVE TODAY! And open your arms wide! #NewBeginnings #DreamWithGod
Dear Meg, You are making a real mark, in a place that is needy and dark. Your mark, the aroma of Christ. I praise God for you and your willingness to uproot from your home and follow Him. Press on with Him, my friend. MKR